Q:

Do you ever find yourself stuck between who you are and who you think you could be, or should be?

Do you find it hard to get out of bed on saturdays with few plans after long work weeks?

Do you wish you could just always know what to do?

Do I do nothing, follow the 'normal' path, or fly into the unknown? I guess I've already made some decisions in my life that will prevent anything completely normal. But that still leaves me unsure of what to do. There are so many choices to be made.

Often when I don't know what to choose, I just avoid decided. I push away my thoughts while I can. Soon enough they all come back asking me what i will do. In the game of live there are only so many options- you spin the wheel and life happens. But is that really how you want to live? Just letting life 'happen' does not really seem like life at all.

Sometimes it seems as though there are all these voices in my head. Each one wants something different of me. They are in conflict with one another.
I want Unity.

Tonight maybe there aren't 24 voices, but rather 17.

Life and love and why
Child, adult, then die
All of your hoping
And all of your searching
For what?

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Take away from me
This monstrosity
'Cause my futile thinking's
Not gonna solve nothing tonight


"Ask me for what am I living or what gives me strength that I'm willing to die for."

His responce to this song- to these questions seem to be found in the next song:

I find peace when I'm confused
I find hope when I'm let down
Not in me, Me,
But In You