Wednesday, October 1, 2008

realizations

I have begun to realize that I am one of those people that are afraid of letting themselves go. I don't have much confidence. I look to others for compliments and uplifting remarks.

I think we do need each other, that without love we cannot truly exist.
but how am i to find that love?
how am i to give myself away? to let myself go?

will i ever know?



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i am sick.
i felt like blogging.
i don't know if that made any sense.
SCHOOL REIGNS!

4 comments:

Christine said...

hmm..

what do you mean by 'letting themselves go'?

alice said...

idunno...love is supposed to be letting yourself go, right?
like, opening yourself up enough to let someone else in?

i think my point was i am afraid of love.

Christine said...

it can be.

depends on the kinda of love you are talking about i guess.. :)

breakofdaylight said...

:(
man, I feel that way too. too often in my mind. I wish I didn't feel the constant need for compliments from others or the fear of putting myself out there for others to see but I do.

and I wonder how anyone will ever possibly be able to see me if I can't do that.
I love my friend to death but once again I find myself sitting on the side lines watching everyone around us be drawn to her..and no one looks at me. I wonder how I ever was that type of person, the type that people gravitate towards, because I was..but I guess I grew out of it. Out of any shred of self-confidence I ever had, and my right to be seen.