Wednesday, February 27, 2008

a new beginning

So, first post. Awkward? Haha..
Well, I don't know if anyone will ever read any of this, or if it'll just be my and Chrissy's way of getting stuff out. We'll just have to see.
But I'll pretend for now.

The title to this blog is 'crossing into reality'. This came from the Bright Eyes song "Nothing Gets Crossed Out". Part of what that song means to me is how we all keep planning to do all these things and never actually do them. Whether it's because of fear, bad memories, laziness, or just forgetting, whatever, nothing ever gets crossed out. And this is something I find myself doing over and over and over again. It's happened today, even. I never do what I promise myself I will do. So this blog is for our dreams and making them reality. For our fears, and facing them. For our troubles, our envies, our sorrows, our lives, our crap. And just getting it out of us.

So when I'm lost in a crowd, I hope that you'll pick me out
I long to be found, the grass grew high, I laid down
Now I'll wait for a hand to lift me up, help me stand
I've been laying so long, don't wanna lay here no more
Don't wanna lay here no more, don't wanna lay here no more

Everything that happens is supposed to be
And it's all pre-determined, can't change your destiny
Guess I'll just keep moving, someday maybe
I'll get to where I'm going

Here's to a new beginning.

ps: see comments for more.

6 comments:

alice said...

I didn't want to mess up the 'feel' of that post with a question, so I'll post my question here.

In the song, he talks about wanting someone to come and help him stand. Who do you think could do that? What if you have to do it yourself? Would this be a good thing or no?

let's start a conversation! :)

Christine said...

i wanted to leave an oppertunity for others to post first... but i don't wanna wait.

Who do you think could do that?
i don't mean to use the JESUS answer... but honestly i think that's the only way we can stand fully stand up and be able to function.
i dare you to lift yourself up off the floor.
where can you run to escape from yourself?

well in the case of DYTM i think the step is getting off the floor.. in this song i think it's calling out for help.

i think it builds strength, but i don't think we can do it ourselves honestly.. no matter how much i, myself, want to do it.

Anonymous said...

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Uhhh .. I can't think of anything to say but .. I'm looking forward to more blogs by you awesome gals (;

alice said...

hehe, thanks gabby!

Chrissy: I don't know, that's the obvious answer, but it just doesn't work for me. Jesus is not there for me.
I don't want to do it myself but I laid there for too long, alone with no one to pick me up. Jesus did not come to help me stand. I realized I have to do it myself. If I want anything to get crossed out, I can't wait for Jesus. He never comes.

Anonymous said...

i think Christ can certainly lift you up, but i can definitely relate to and understand what you're saying, alice. he doesn't always do it, at least the way we hope. sometimes life doesn't make sense and everything seems like complete crap and that it really is just a whirling mass of chaos. life sucks sometimes and it feels like God isn't there to help you, sometimes when you need him most, sometimes when all the crap your going through "should" be in his control, sometimes because you were doing what you thought he wanted, because etc etc etc..

i feel like there has to be other things in your life to keep you going.. that even though God is all-powerful, and all-mighty, we need human love and support

friendship is one of those things we can't take for granted..
friends have gotten me through a lot when i felt abandoned by god.
and honestly, looking back on it, I've realized he hadn't left me, but it sure as hell felt like it..

breakofdaylight said...

"If I want anything to get crossed out, I can't wait for Jesus. He never comes."

I think it's like Chrissy was saying. And like you said yourself in the next post Alice. It's not that Christ doesn't come but we need to act. Do something on our part or he'll walk by and we won't see him.
And there are times when he's there, helping us along, but for all the noise and the fear, and whatever is against us we can't see him. We feel alone. So he sends others to help us through him. And what's hardest, at least for me, is accepting that, like Kelsey said, he's not always going to do for us what we want, the way we hope.